Its happening again

I dont know why,
I dont know why I am feeling this way,
I dont know why after all these years I am thinking everyday about what happened.
I cant stop.
I cant stop my thoughts about it.
I cant get over it.
I was living three years on piece.
And these 6months I cant get it off my mind.

Broken

I feel broken,
Why it is always happening with me,
Why I have so much unnesesery feelings,
And why I dont have feeling for you,
I want that so bad.
I want love you rest of my life,
But why I feel so unhappy,
Why I have that broken feeling,
I want to tell you,
But I am afraid to lose you.
I am afraid to lose myself,
Its hurting me so much,
I want to disepare...
That feeling is killing myself,
I dont know how to tell you,
I am unhappy.
I dont know how to fix that.
It is so depresing.

Serebro-slomana

Drops falling in ocean

All your thought
All your answer
All your pressure
All your negative energy
All your conserve
Is making my calm ocean to attack on everyone
Cant handle that anymore.
Wanna scream
Wanna hide
Wanna break
Wanna go war away
But it is escape.
I need to understand me
I need to forgive me for not loving myself
I need to love everyone who is caring for me
I need to understand how to do it.

Harsh truth

Sometimes I feel beautiful,
Sometimes I feel desirable,
Sometimes I feel smart,
Sometimes I feel better then everyone,
Sometimes I love myself.
That disgusting feeling that I cant feel it always.

Best feeling is when you know where you belong. 

But I dont know where it is.

That feeling you cant see world clealry

Somehow

Somehow life is changing